NikAssist

The clock is ticking and the reality of the situation is setting in. In 1 week, I will no longer have the income to pay my rent or my bills. As much as I want to trust that a new job will come through, or a slew of new client will come and give me the income I need, the truth is that it is most likely not going to happen in this market. At least in time for me not to fall behind on my rent, which would just sink me into a whole I do not want to try to climb out of.

I want to swallow this big huge pill of pride and go ahead and move back home. I have struggled for 10 years to support myself and my daughter, and it has been a struggle every single year. With no support from her father, no support from my ex-husband, it was always a struggle. I always did what I had to do to stay on my own and now I'm just at the point where if I'm ever really going to have the life I want, I am going to have to take a step back and ease this load that I'm carrying. It's so simple, so clear, move back home for 6 months to a year, get out of debt, go back to school and come out with a way to really build the life I'm struggling right now to maintain.

My goals, my dreams are so attainable, but I have been fighting...

I have seen lots of posts about taking baby steps in order to achieve your goals, and I agree with this concept 100%. But because I agree with it, does not mean that I have been implementing it! And this is going to change...

This forum has so much valuable information and I have read so much of it but have done little about what I have learned. So now it's time to not only gather information, but to use the information that I get and put it to use immediately! I have searched job boards and found many jobs I "should" be qualified for, but yet I don't apply! What is my purpose there if I'm not even going to apply for the job then?

So it's time to get to basics, I would say "back" to basics, but it's the basics that I've been leaving out in the first place! Baby steps..

1. Finish all my profiles: Break this down into even more baby steps and every day finish at least 1 profile.

2. Start applying for jobs: be it on getafreelancer, this site, oDesk..doesn't matter, each day I have to apply to at least 5 positions!

So, these are my first few baby steps...I will provide updates as to where these steps end up taking me, but I am so excited...

Why can't I just be at home, on my computer, reading the VAF and then applying all the knowledge I am gaining to my business? Why do I have to come into this office each day and waste my valuable networking and marketing time? I think this is completely unfair! I can only read the VAF, but checking out all the links and everything just takes too much time, and I'm supposed to be doing quotes and tracking orders for my day job...I want to be working on my SEO strategies and finding forums to join and engage in!! I want to have my music on my computer what I want to listen to...not this boring elevator music they have playing in the background. I want to be able to take a breather and take my dog for a short walk and then happily come back to work on my computer in my home!!

I want to be able to be there when my daughter gets off the school bus like all the other moms I see at the bus stop that I PASS ON MY WAY TO THIS OFFICE!!

Is a vent still considered a blog..LOL...just daydreaming a bit about what is going to come my way...soon...this blog itself will be both history and a reality!

How are you going to do this? Who is going to pay for this? Where are you going to find clients? What does it all mean?

I'm finding as I am telling more and more people about my business plan, the questions are being thrown at me left and right and with each one, little bits of "doubt" start creeping into my mind. I believe in myself and I believe that I have a valuable service to offer AND I believe that my time is worth a monetary reward...as with ANY service. I believe that my gifts and knowledge have been given to me for a purpose and that I can indeed make my dreams come true.

But I also find with the questions...come opportunity. A chance to once again state my goals and prove just how needed my services actually are. When I see that gleam..that nod of understanding, all of my positive beliefs are confirmed once again. I end up welcoming the questions, yes, ask me more...what else can I tell you about my dream??

My secret is THE Secret. Yes, the one and only much publicized Secret. [Link]

The book was brought to my attention about 8 months ago. After reading a few pages, I thought about how my life had been going and how I wanted it to change. I then read the entire book and watched the movie and decided right then and there that I would change my life immediately. I started small, just trying to keep a positive attitude about things, seeing the bright side and trying to control how my thoughts and actions mirrored what I wanted out of life. I wrote down and make a Vision board of all the things I really wanted for myself and kept it realistic.

First goal- new car. The car I was driving did not have reverse, so I literally was pushing myself out of spaces that I had no choice but to pull into..either that, or park on a hill so I could roll out easier My car also would not stay running unless I kept my hand on the ignition in the "on" position. So a new car was needed pretty badly and I had no money or prospect of getting the money it would take to get a new car. I just began to focus on driving a normal car, of backing out of spaces without the use of my leg muscles...I...